Hi all,
I am glad that I found this website where I can share my experience and learn more from all the single mummies out there.
My son is 8yrs old now, pri2. He and I left his dad when he was 3 mths old.
He spend his weekends with his dad.
His dad and I are still in talking terms and we still goes out 'as a family', ofocz that will be his 'best time' spent. He likes to hold both of our hands. He really enjoy every single seconds of it, be it just a causal dinner or a movie...
He lacks of confident, so he is a follower in school. He can never take charge of situations. He behave like an over aged baby, like he is always 3 yrs old.
His school ranking is always at the bottom 3. He can never consentrate on his school works. He lied saying that he don't have any homeworks and after 3 days it always ended getting calls from his teacher. In fact, his teacher and I 'keep in touch' constantly.
His dad's concern very much on his education so much so that he is spending $700 per month on his tuitions, and ya, the results are still as bad!
So we came to have a conclusion that because his 'foundation' is not getting enough training when he was younger!
I have always want him to enjoy his childhood, letting him do what a child should be doing, simple becoz I had never had any good memories of my childhood.
I do teaches him what dos and don'ts, what can and cannot, but somehow I realise I did some thing wrong in between.....seeing him now, i felt so lost, esp I am currently base oversea. I can only gets to see him online via skype and this makes me feel I own him even more. I am not there with him, when he needs me and my biggest lost is not able to watch him grow and guide him through the process.....its been 1 yr I based oversea.
In short, its been 7yrs, I still feels guilty of not be able to provide him a 'family'..and I felt whatever his wrongs are, are all my faults...
I am glad that I found this website where I can share my experience and learn more from all the single mummies out there.
My son is 8yrs old now, pri2. He and I left his dad when he was 3 mths old.
He spend his weekends with his dad.
His dad and I are still in talking terms and we still goes out 'as a family', ofocz that will be his 'best time' spent. He likes to hold both of our hands. He really enjoy every single seconds of it, be it just a causal dinner or a movie...
He lacks of confident, so he is a follower in school. He can never take charge of situations. He behave like an over aged baby, like he is always 3 yrs old.
His school ranking is always at the bottom 3. He can never consentrate on his school works. He lied saying that he don't have any homeworks and after 3 days it always ended getting calls from his teacher. In fact, his teacher and I 'keep in touch' constantly.
His dad's concern very much on his education so much so that he is spending $700 per month on his tuitions, and ya, the results are still as bad!
So we came to have a conclusion that because his 'foundation' is not getting enough training when he was younger!
I have always want him to enjoy his childhood, letting him do what a child should be doing, simple becoz I had never had any good memories of my childhood.
I do teaches him what dos and don'ts, what can and cannot, but somehow I realise I did some thing wrong in between.....seeing him now, i felt so lost, esp I am currently base oversea. I can only gets to see him online via skype and this makes me feel I own him even more. I am not there with him, when he needs me and my biggest lost is not able to watch him grow and guide him through the process.....its been 1 yr I based oversea.
In short, its been 7yrs, I still feels guilty of not be able to provide him a 'family'..and I felt whatever his wrongs are, are all my faults...
 | My Guilt Posted 23-09-2008 at 05:01 PM by Compy
Hi all, I am glad that I found this website where I can share my experience and learn more from all the single mummies out there. My son is 8yrs old now, pri2. He and I left his dad when he was 3 mths old. He spend his weekends with his dad. His dad and I are still in talking terms and we still goes out 'as a family', ofocz that will be his 'best time' spent. He likes to hold both of our hands. He really enjoy every single seconds of it, be... |
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