Hi maybe you should let someone look after your baby maybe your mum , cf lady or maid . It is very important that you let someone help you to look after baby when you dont't feel well . I delivered my baby 4 mths ago when she was one month old I had a bad time too cos she was always crying due to colic but bad time will pass eventually n now she's well n bubbly . Take care n keep in touch ! If you need someone to talk to you can always msg me but never do silly thing ok !