hello no im not super thin. ive been on the pretty plump side for most of my life. and yeah, i have very irregular periods. when in sec schl,i went to the same gynae, and he said i will never conceive so easily, but he gave me a pill to regulate my periods. however, i didnt work. so ever since 15, i only have period like 5 times a year. then i didnt have period for whole of last yr, until my 42km Stand chart marathon. (5th dec '10) it came on that day and until jan, it stopped.
so when my bf and i did it, i was really too over confident of not getting caught, and he didnt even release himself inside. which im pretty sure he didnt.
pretty complicated on the ROM thingy. cos my bro said he doesnt allow us to ROM unless bf proves himself to my family he is responsible. ( and somemore now he going in ns around aug end, and thee is no way he can support me. )otherwise, baby will carry my surname. sigh... really like those taiwanese drama. yeah.. i really think its about the "face" cos my relatives would talk. some more i felt i shldnt ROM yet, cos i am afraid of another 2nd mistake, which is divorce. though bf promises he will be responsible, but people change.. hes not easy to deal with either cos he used to be really jealous over everything, and i kinda gave up talking t my best guy friends cos of him.
and talking about abort, maybe my gynae scared me about me losing my life. but i really cant bear to see my baby being taken away from me. thru the ultrasound, he looks like a human figure of a gummy bear and i can see the heart beating.. the thought of it pains me a lot. i cant do it also.
and i am still worried about my parents, and worried about if my bf will change for the better and be more responsible. i feel like telling my parents tomorrow that they shld at least be a bit happier the boy admits it's his kid, and not say he doesnt wanna do anything. dont know if i shld or not. but my bro and my gynae advised me to keep quiet. poor boyf