Hi SGNZ, oh dear how can the NZ midwife throw the baby to your without helping. I hope you r better now.
Thank you for your encouragement , I'm better now but still trying to adapt. Please take care SGNZ , handling baby alone is really tough but you will be stronger than anyone of us here , I feel really useless after hearing your story . I will stay strong n try my best. Nothing can be done if you never try so let's work hard together.