Ahwang, poor mummy! *hugs* We would love for you to join us but if you prefer to remain anonymous, of cos we will respect your wishes.. We just thought getting out of the house and getting support from one another can lift your spirits a little.. But if you feel so stressed by it, then it's ok!
I agree with lin.. Maybe have a talk with your hubby? The more you try to put up a brave front, nobody will know you are having a hard time.. Mummies are human after all.. If baby is causing you so much stress, it may do you good to have some time away for yourself.. Go for a haircut, facial, mani/pedi, have a good dinner etc.. Leave the baby with your parents or parents in law for a night while you go enjoy yourself or with hubby.. It will do you good!
I'm also alone with baby at home with no help.. My baby sometimes fuss the whole day and I really dont know what she wans.. Tried rocking, carrying everything and I'm so stressed.. My parents come every Sun so there are 2 extra pair of hands that day and I can breathe a little easier.. And once I grumbled to hubby that I'm sick of being a milkmaid at home and the next day he brought me out for buffet dinner and we left baby with my mother in law for a few hours.. I felt so recharged after that.. you try too! It is ok to ask ppl for help.. We are not super beings.. It doesn't do you any good to keep up the brave front and be so depressed wen nobody is looking..
what is the baby care arrangement wen you return to work? Infant care? If so, maybe can check if you can start leaving baby with them for half a day? Every alternate day?
Jia you! Be positive! This fussiness will soon be over (i hope so too!)!