Hello mummy..I faced the same dilemma as you wen i had my boy..I would give anything to be able to stay at home so that i could take care of him..Witness his every milestone..
But with the high cost of living nowadays,its quite difficult to survive on a single-income especially when i just shifted into my own place after i delivered my boy.I got married in June 2008..Shifted into my own home in Nov 2008 and delivered my boy in Nov 2009..
I had no choice but to send my boy to a nanny when i finished my maternity leave.I was staying in Simei and the nanny was staying in Tampines..You can imagine how sleepy and tired i felt having to wake up at 5am in the morning to send my boy before going to work.But as both me and hubby are working shifts,there were nights when my boy had to sleep overnight at the nanny's place.There isnt a single time that i didnt feel sad and worried having to leave him there.
But you should be thankful that you still have your in-laws around to take care of your son..My own mum has passed away and my dad cant take care of my son on his own..So now that im expecting my No.2,i have no choice but to rent out my home and move-in with my in-laws.Altho they stay in Jurong West and i work at Changi Airport,the journey to work becomes more tiring but at least,once i reach home,my son is taken care of.One thing i can tell you is that grandparents will love their grandchildren MORE than they love their own children so you should not be worried about leaving your son in the hands of your in-laws.
When the time comes for you to go back to work,as hard as it is,just keep in mind that you have to earn a living too to be able to make life easy for your family.And even though,Mummy wont be around every second of the day,your son will always be there at home waiting happily for you.And once you see the smile on his face when he greets you,im sure you will feel proud and contented that you are working to earn him a comfortable living.
All the best DEAR..!!!