hi maxmum! welcome to the forum!
sorry to hear about your loss. no worries what was not meant to be is always better for the longrun. besides, you have five beautiful children to give all your love to!
glad you joined the forum - i think the mummies will have lots to gain from you as well.
would you like to share more about yourself? how did you decide to have five children? do you believe in letting nature take its course (i.e. no birth control or family planning)? how is life like with five kids?? what about financially - is your family comfortable?
i would love to have 3 boys. i've already achieved one (haha)! but my dear husband would like a girl too (of cos). i dont't really use birth control but i think once we've already achieved 3 (if we do), then might be high time to invest in some!