My way of accepting a special child and stop crying everytime ppl ask about her was to keep blogging (had no one to confine) until I got so used to it .... now I can talk to ppl about her condition, y she ended up as an Angel before 1yr old w/o tearing.
It really take months/years to "heal". The word 'heal' just means I stopped crying - not so emotional.
Post yr msg, talk it out here .... we've been thru the same 'ordeal' .....Give yourself sometime to 'heal'. This is a 'special gift' not everybody can accept willing or instantly.