Hi
though i have yet to finalise the D, but i suppose its a matter of time. Never in my life did i imagine that a D would occur in my life, things have been smooth sailing all along, but yet i din see the red lights within the 1st few years of my marriage, until it came to a point of no return.
It's easy to say not to blame oneself, blame others, move on, move on...but alas how easy has it been to move on...i been trying to shift my focus but there are bound to be times when the unexpected just happen...like getting a call from the third party to scold me for still trying to tie down my to be ex with kids (since he still wants to go out with the kids once a while)..etc etc...sometimes i wonder..why and what in the world did i deserve all this? My bad temper? My arrogance? or My ignorance to a man's needs? Does a D really let me move on...or if i continue to hang out with that man because of our kids..actually i can never move on..but i can never agree for him to bring the kids out alone thus i follow all the time..i know i chose this type of misery..sigh.
though i have yet to finalise the D, but i suppose its a matter of time. Never in my life did i imagine that a D would occur in my life, things have been smooth sailing all along, but yet i din see the red lights within the 1st few years of my marriage, until it came to a point of no return.
It's easy to say not to blame oneself, blame others, move on, move on...but alas how easy has it been to move on...i been trying to shift my focus but there are bound to be times when the unexpected just happen...like getting a call from the third party to scold me for still trying to tie down my to be ex with kids (since he still wants to go out with the kids once a while)..etc etc...sometimes i wonder..why and what in the world did i deserve all this? My bad temper? My arrogance? or My ignorance to a man's needs? Does a D really let me move on...or if i continue to hang out with that man because of our kids..actually i can never move on..but i can never agree for him to bring the kids out alone thus i follow all the time..i know i chose this type of misery..sigh.