I guess she thought that your dad wanted to do something bad to her, and thus was afraid of going near him and such. And during that period, there's no sex education and such, thus your dad being a teenager would be curious especially when there's no adults to guide him on how to behave and how to conduct himself. (I'm presuming your GU Por, might be too busy taking care of all the kids to have time guiding him, plus the older folks tend to be more conservative and tend to avoid such topics)
Sometimes, I wondered if my memories were real. And sometimes I wonder to myself, if I had said anything during that time, would anyone believed me?
It does help in opening up and talking about it. Its only when I started to confide in my best friend about it 10 years after it had happened, then I was slowly able to let it go and not let it torment me.
I can understood its even more so tormenting for you especially when its a relative, someone whom you and your family trusts, and even more so, if you have to face him during family gatherings. *hugs*
thanks for the concerns and advice given =)
so actually, i'm not the only one who had such encounters.
Renzie: At least you dare to confide in your best friend. because I don't. I didn't tell anyone at all. Posting here in the forum is because I can hide my identity and can share it out without worries.
I feel so ashame of what had happened. I can still remember the fear when he caressed me. The very scare but don't dare to move or shout fear.
I was only 9 years old then. He is the only male in the family thus everybody dote on him a lot.
It's just so disgusting to even think of it.
Cancanmum: At least your dad didn't do it on purpose. Mine cousin DID IT ON PURPOSE. Sigh.
How to let go? It still lingers in my mind and heart.
I'm so scare whenever my male cousins go near my girl. I will always be in the room when my girl is playing with them.