jojoki
Well-Known Member
I've had a very hard time for the past 34 weeks... since i got pregnant. I am blessed with very good health despite being diabetic and havin to inject insulin daily and prick finger 6 x a day. However I was discriminated at work, got demoted, huge pay cut... and had to swallow false allegations pertaining my work performance. And of course with the demotion also came a lot of bullying... like being put on long and late shifts. (until 11pm)
I try to stay strong for my precious daughter... after 2 miscarriages and 1.5 years without ovulation I tot I will never have a child of my own. N God is good and blessed me with this pregnancy. So i try to tell myself that no matter wat comes along.. its all tolerable and worth it
Now that I'm delivering soon... my company still wants to make things difficult for me by not allowing me to take 16 weeks continuous maternity leave. THey only want to give me 8 weeks meaning i have to resume work whn my bb is 1 mth 1 week!!!! Now that I'm about to go on leave I'm all stressed up having to try to fight for my leave.
N to top that... being diabetic everymonth I have to fork out a lot on my medical bills.. gynae fees, endocrinologist fees, etc.. and i pay for everything myself!!
my useless hubby doesnt support me at all not even a single cent!! And just today i had to pay for his 3 months phone bill of $330+++ i'm so stressed bcos i;ve wiped out all my savings to settle his bills 3 yrs back when he got into a huge debt. and i never managed to save back bcos i had to pay the bills, insurances, tv license, groceries etc..
now that i'm pregnant i have to buy all the baby stuff, pay fr own bills, on top of watever i've been paying.
I have no idea how much my hosp bill is gonna be at raffles but I'm so tired n stressed out! whenever i try to discuss about our financial management he'll blow up.. like today and he said he din wan our baby!!!
at that point i just felt like giving up!! on myself and baby!! but i love my baby so... much!! i felt really bad that i had to channel this negative feelings to her.. i would never want her to feel UNWANTED!
Until now my hubby who earns more than me refuse to fork out one single cent for our baby!! but he can buy ciggies, buy 4d buy toto!!! 2 months after i coughed up my savings to settle his bills, he chalked up another 18k debt!!!
and forced me to be his guarantor but i refused and he threaten to strangle my dog!!!
Somtime i really wonder how long more i have to suffer.... but i tell myself to keep sane for my child!!!! but i just feel like i'm gonna explode any minute wth my stupid company tormenting me and my husband irresponsibility. I always wonder why did he marry me was it for my money?
for all the money he pilferaged more than $26k.. he had never bought a single thing for me and he never had once explained what he spent on!!!
I am so on the verge of giving up!!!
I try to stay strong for my precious daughter... after 2 miscarriages and 1.5 years without ovulation I tot I will never have a child of my own. N God is good and blessed me with this pregnancy. So i try to tell myself that no matter wat comes along.. its all tolerable and worth it
Now that I'm delivering soon... my company still wants to make things difficult for me by not allowing me to take 16 weeks continuous maternity leave. THey only want to give me 8 weeks meaning i have to resume work whn my bb is 1 mth 1 week!!!! Now that I'm about to go on leave I'm all stressed up having to try to fight for my leave.
N to top that... being diabetic everymonth I have to fork out a lot on my medical bills.. gynae fees, endocrinologist fees, etc.. and i pay for everything myself!!
my useless hubby doesnt support me at all not even a single cent!! And just today i had to pay for his 3 months phone bill of $330+++ i'm so stressed bcos i;ve wiped out all my savings to settle his bills 3 yrs back when he got into a huge debt. and i never managed to save back bcos i had to pay the bills, insurances, tv license, groceries etc..
now that i'm pregnant i have to buy all the baby stuff, pay fr own bills, on top of watever i've been paying.
I have no idea how much my hosp bill is gonna be at raffles but I'm so tired n stressed out! whenever i try to discuss about our financial management he'll blow up.. like today and he said he din wan our baby!!!
at that point i just felt like giving up!! on myself and baby!! but i love my baby so... much!! i felt really bad that i had to channel this negative feelings to her.. i would never want her to feel UNWANTED!
Until now my hubby who earns more than me refuse to fork out one single cent for our baby!! but he can buy ciggies, buy 4d buy toto!!! 2 months after i coughed up my savings to settle his bills, he chalked up another 18k debt!!!
and forced me to be his guarantor but i refused and he threaten to strangle my dog!!!
Somtime i really wonder how long more i have to suffer.... but i tell myself to keep sane for my child!!!! but i just feel like i'm gonna explode any minute wth my stupid company tormenting me and my husband irresponsibility. I always wonder why did he marry me was it for my money?
for all the money he pilferaged more than $26k.. he had never bought a single thing for me and he never had once explained what he spent on!!!
I am so on the verge of giving up!!!