My husband n I had live separate for about 2 months plus now since we qurral . At first im thinking of moving into his parents house to live with him but since his parents don't like me that much due to lots of misunderstanding . His father keep chasing me out n don't want me to go into his house. And my husband is still very angry that no matter how I sms him or call he didn't even ans . Recently, while I wait for him secretly at his house area I found out that he bring a gal home n that gal is quite young for their age gap is around 13 to 15 age gap as my hubby is 33 yr old . I broke down at that point when I saw them even though they didin hold hands but I feel very surprise as I never thought that he my hubby will actually do this . Of course I confront my hubby n he tell me she is Just A FRIEND ? My husband even let her go into his house n don't let me go into his house . Then at the first thing I ask him what u two doing inside he tell me just watch tv . I don't believe at all ! Then after many days I spy at his area he everyday bring her back to his parents house wher he now staying . E gal even stay over night n my hubby also went to her house n stay over night . So of course I confront him again I ask him is she ur gf ? Or u love her ? Den is it u really want to divorce ? He keep mum . He say that all its I think that way n he say she only a friend . And I said why need to bring a friend back home everyday ? Isnt a friend is suppose to meet outside talk n eat n went separate to each other home ? He keep mum . When I ask him he want divorce is it , he seems don't want . But his action is making my heart sank . His father even stop me fom going to their house seems his father want to separate us ! I really don't know what to do I love him a lot . Recently I found out that im preg I told him my hubby , he don't believe , he even want proof ! Then I show him proof , he tel me to give him time n he is jobless now not enough money n say he don't even want that gal N he don't want to divorce at all . He ask me to give him time . He say he stress. I thought he means it , but ... e next day I spy at his area I saw e gal insid his house again seems she staying over . My hearts sank .. he lie ? He say not enough money but he been spending money on both of their expenses , hp bills say he not enough to paid but he get another line which I don't know .While bills he didn't paid I think he want to cancel it away. Then I msg him he really don't want our baby ? He say if I a wife only can cook , n other stuff , he can don't give any allowance n don't responsible to the baby too , he say fucking right .He blame me he lose the job because of me I comments too much . But isn't he heartless don't even want his own blood. He didn't accompany me to the gyne once , he didn't even bother to call or msg me how was I ? He didn't even say when he want divorce he just trying to went disappear. And he everyday still stick with e gal . I really feel like dieing . He still tell me that having a baby is not solely his responsible is a two person things ask me don't keep blame on him . Ya right but now e baby is only me that is responsible expense visit gyne etc n I use to stay at home now just recently went work. I really don't know how I don't know keeping the baby is a right thing to do ? He just want to run away from me even ask divorce he keep mum ask about the gal he say ask me to give him freedom! I use to being beat by him as he got family violence . He still tell me guy strength is usually stronger then gal ask me don't exaggarte things . He really put a knife n bleed my heart ! I really don't know what to do .... For the baby sake i don't even know i can really forgive he cheat on me i been having nightmares as he n e gal images keep flashing into my memerioes, i n my husband been married 7 yrs now , rom actually . I still hope that he could come out from his sense n back to family but he didn't even ans my any call. I already tell him i had miscarriage signs he didn even bother . I don't know keep this baby is a right thing to do , this is our first baby ! Most of my relatives r very angry ask me to divorce him .. but i cant bear to do so . And i also cant make myself to forgive his cheat . Cause he don't even find he is wrong ! I really feel like dieing with e baby .... I find that maybe marriage make us apart he seems like want to find love from others as dating he no stress .