andieluv2
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Hi all mummies... I juz need a place for me to voice out my sadness rather than keeping it to myself or telling my hub bcoz I think he will not understand wat I am going thru bcoz he's not a mother. So pls bare with me as I vent my sadness...
My baby was 6.5 months now and I started off having difficulty latching her as I had short nipple. Went thru alot of struggles as ppl keep telling me I got NO milk etc etc and many disappointing comments. even thou I was really affected, I told myself I must persevere to bf my bb. At least till 6 months old.
So initially my bb was on partial feeds and my kind friend donated her ebm to me and with my supply increasing, I was able to let my bb have total bm at 2.5 months till she was 6 months old.
It was a tough journey. The tiredness, waking up in the wee hrs to pump, trying out all means and ways to increase my supply, the constant disappointment that my supply only went up by abit each time, many episode of crack nipple and got infected, the loss of freedom as u're like tied down to the baby and the pump every 3 hrly etc etc... I am sure many mothers know wat I am talking abt.
I took an addtional of 1.5 months of no pay leave so I could stay at hm and pump for my bb bcoz I know once I am bck to work, my supply will drop. And true enough. Whn I am bck at wk whn bb was abt 5 months. My supply drop tremendously. And recently, I had an episode of serious throat infection which caused me to have fever for 3 consecutive days. I was sooo tired to pump due to the chills and rigors. So I converted my pump hrs from 12hrly to once per day. I know my supply will definitely drop further but I was really too weak to stay awake to pump. And anyway I was planning to stop pumping as I am going to europe for 17 days in 2 wks time. So I cant possibly pump and travel. So I decided to stop too.
But I jus feel this sudden sense of loss. Like after months of hard wrk. Its like going bck to square 1. I feel upset and lost. I keep thinking did I do the right thing. I feel down. But I know I cant resume pumping at wrk as my job nature wont allow me to pump regularly. Which is really sad.
Hope I am not too naggy. I juz wanna vent out my frustration. And hope that mummies with similar experience share with me how u cope during this stressful period.
TIA.
My baby was 6.5 months now and I started off having difficulty latching her as I had short nipple. Went thru alot of struggles as ppl keep telling me I got NO milk etc etc and many disappointing comments. even thou I was really affected, I told myself I must persevere to bf my bb. At least till 6 months old.
So initially my bb was on partial feeds and my kind friend donated her ebm to me and with my supply increasing, I was able to let my bb have total bm at 2.5 months till she was 6 months old.
It was a tough journey. The tiredness, waking up in the wee hrs to pump, trying out all means and ways to increase my supply, the constant disappointment that my supply only went up by abit each time, many episode of crack nipple and got infected, the loss of freedom as u're like tied down to the baby and the pump every 3 hrly etc etc... I am sure many mothers know wat I am talking abt.
I took an addtional of 1.5 months of no pay leave so I could stay at hm and pump for my bb bcoz I know once I am bck to work, my supply will drop. And true enough. Whn I am bck at wk whn bb was abt 5 months. My supply drop tremendously. And recently, I had an episode of serious throat infection which caused me to have fever for 3 consecutive days. I was sooo tired to pump due to the chills and rigors. So I converted my pump hrs from 12hrly to once per day. I know my supply will definitely drop further but I was really too weak to stay awake to pump. And anyway I was planning to stop pumping as I am going to europe for 17 days in 2 wks time. So I cant possibly pump and travel. So I decided to stop too.
But I jus feel this sudden sense of loss. Like after months of hard wrk. Its like going bck to square 1. I feel upset and lost. I keep thinking did I do the right thing. I feel down. But I know I cant resume pumping at wrk as my job nature wont allow me to pump regularly. Which is really sad.
Hope I am not too naggy. I juz wanna vent out my frustration. And hope that mummies with similar experience share with me how u cope during this stressful period.
TIA.
