rachelleling
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I did exclusive pumping for my first child and despite the fact that there were so many washings and sterilising to do, I could be more mobile and also let others feed him. My son was rather easy to take care. Mayb cos he was on EBM, it was easier to make him follow a schedule and before 3 mths, he was following a routine beautifully and able to zzz 5-6 hours in the night. he was relatively easy to care for.
But for my second child, it was not as easy. First, i decided to do direct latching. this puts a strain on me cos i have to be there to feed. practically a milk machine. i cant go out for more than 1 hour 45 min cos scared later she wants milk and no one to feed her. Then, mayb cos my letdown is very forceful and I have a lot of milk, she gulps down milk and in the process gulp down air. she's very colicky and will pass out lots of wind. since she's colicky, she always like to be carried for comfort (cos she doesn;t like to suck my nipples for comfort as everytime she sucks, she gets a lot of milk and this frustrates her cos her main idea is comfort not milk). I have to carry her and walk around the house. she'll cry and wail if i put her down. (i dun dare to let her cry for long cos scare she swallow more air = colicky). Then, everyday she'll be cranky from 5am-8am cos of the colic and is very difficult to coax. I am soooo tired that once, when i carried her to bed to get ready to feed her, my hands just gave way and she fell face down on the mattress! i was horrified. i realise my hands are so weak from always carrying her.
I am getting very very tired coaxing her, feeding her. somemore I have an elder son whom i have neglected so much. he was crying for me and insisted that i zz with him everynight. There was one night he had a nightmare and only wanted me to hug him. he hugged me so tightly and refused to let me go. then, just yesteday, when I was showering him, i got impatient with him cos mei mei was crying. i slapped him cos he was doing something which i told him not to. he started crying and kept saying sorry. what's hurting me most was he started slapping himself as if he knew he was really wrong. I just cried and cried yest night.
I am staying with my inlaws. i m lucky i need not go housework. my main job is to take care of the baby. even my FIL helps to play with my son and they are very close (which makes me jealous at times). But I still feel worn out.
I dunno what to do. everyday, i dread hearing her cries cos it means i have to carry for for very long (and she's getting heavier by the day). SIgh............'
sorry fo the long post. I really need to vent it out!
But for my second child, it was not as easy. First, i decided to do direct latching. this puts a strain on me cos i have to be there to feed. practically a milk machine. i cant go out for more than 1 hour 45 min cos scared later she wants milk and no one to feed her. Then, mayb cos my letdown is very forceful and I have a lot of milk, she gulps down milk and in the process gulp down air. she's very colicky and will pass out lots of wind. since she's colicky, she always like to be carried for comfort (cos she doesn;t like to suck my nipples for comfort as everytime she sucks, she gets a lot of milk and this frustrates her cos her main idea is comfort not milk). I have to carry her and walk around the house. she'll cry and wail if i put her down. (i dun dare to let her cry for long cos scare she swallow more air = colicky). Then, everyday she'll be cranky from 5am-8am cos of the colic and is very difficult to coax. I am soooo tired that once, when i carried her to bed to get ready to feed her, my hands just gave way and she fell face down on the mattress! i was horrified. i realise my hands are so weak from always carrying her.
I am getting very very tired coaxing her, feeding her. somemore I have an elder son whom i have neglected so much. he was crying for me and insisted that i zz with him everynight. There was one night he had a nightmare and only wanted me to hug him. he hugged me so tightly and refused to let me go. then, just yesteday, when I was showering him, i got impatient with him cos mei mei was crying. i slapped him cos he was doing something which i told him not to. he started crying and kept saying sorry. what's hurting me most was he started slapping himself as if he knew he was really wrong. I just cried and cried yest night.
I am staying with my inlaws. i m lucky i need not go housework. my main job is to take care of the baby. even my FIL helps to play with my son and they are very close (which makes me jealous at times). But I still feel worn out.
I dunno what to do. everyday, i dread hearing her cries cos it means i have to carry for for very long (and she's getting heavier by the day). SIgh............'
sorry fo the long post. I really need to vent it out!