3 months ago, i was told that i will be a father. This moment of my life, is called 'happiness' , no i guess it happen when i met her.
This lady i met was a dirvorcee with a child.
I went ahead with the courtship despite numerous sacarstic and mocking remarks from my social circle of friends, strong disapproval from my family, i bear with all comments and even behavior from some who i deem as close friend.
The start of a relationship always is what we called 'honey moon'. We went out enjoyin the company of each other, and the once a while sweet little surprises we 'created' for each other. Leave everything to the back of our mind and just really enjoy the love spreading between both of us.
The first problem arise when i started to harp on her past, this lasted for a month.
Soon i find myself losing myself once i landed my first slap on her cheek, the pain thereafter was undescribable.
I soon 'adjusted' myself to stop such action and stop holding onto her past..
Then the good news that i would be a father.
Never expect i would be sitting behind the screen posting and looking at this forum everyday to prepare for the arrival of my little gift, guess happiness never last long enough to even catch a glimps of it.
Every night without fail, i would bring her out for supper , every day without fail, i would end work and rush home to be by her side, even since we got together. I stopped my favorite fishing hobby to be with her, i stop meeting my friends and reject all collegueas invitations to be by her side.
Two incident- one which was i message my ex girlfriend out of anger while we are quarreling ( just to get her on fire) and the other girl who is interested in me . Despite all this messages, i never once went out with them or even have a cup of coffee together. it's just purely messages.
She show her unhappiness but sometimes i just reply for the sake of replying, not having any other intentions.
I told her many times that they were just messages and i only love her till today but yet she insist that my heart contains some other lady .
I felt so devastated, all this happen always when i'm at work. i have to juggle between work and personal life ensuring that it's not affecting me at work.
I don't have enough rest and i appear so restless at work.
Now that we quarrel she expect me to always give in and she's always not forgetting the messaging incident.
I don't get it when physically at the end of the day, i was always by her side i don't even have time alone to be outside , i did all this hope that she understand it's my way of assurance to her.
Recently the arguements get really often and i'm really finding myself getting tire of all this nonsesnse
I really don't know what to do.
I do love her, very much infact , i don't splurge on myself and i spent everything on her. i wake up every morning to work and put bread on the table for her and the child. i gave her the best of everything and endure on my part.
She now doubt my love, and she no longer see the facts anymore.
Is it time to let go? or her love just isn't here anymore?
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To this beautiful lady of mine,
I know you visit this forum long ago but if you chance upon this i hope you know that i always love you , despite my wrong-doings, it never was my intention to flirt or be with any of them. The start of our journey was a rough one, i hope you remember that it isn't easy to take us to who we have evolve. This little baby is a child from heaven. Your the lady i have always love . despite little support from our parents, i really did the very best i can to make everything work. A rollercoaster ride goes up and down, i hope at the very end of the ride, we would be there together to enjoy the thrill and experience and carrying on the next ride of our life. I love you still , and i always did.
It's just you.
This lady i met was a dirvorcee with a child.
I went ahead with the courtship despite numerous sacarstic and mocking remarks from my social circle of friends, strong disapproval from my family, i bear with all comments and even behavior from some who i deem as close friend.
The start of a relationship always is what we called 'honey moon'. We went out enjoyin the company of each other, and the once a while sweet little surprises we 'created' for each other. Leave everything to the back of our mind and just really enjoy the love spreading between both of us.
The first problem arise when i started to harp on her past, this lasted for a month.
Soon i find myself losing myself once i landed my first slap on her cheek, the pain thereafter was undescribable.
I soon 'adjusted' myself to stop such action and stop holding onto her past..
Then the good news that i would be a father.
Never expect i would be sitting behind the screen posting and looking at this forum everyday to prepare for the arrival of my little gift, guess happiness never last long enough to even catch a glimps of it.
Every night without fail, i would bring her out for supper , every day without fail, i would end work and rush home to be by her side, even since we got together. I stopped my favorite fishing hobby to be with her, i stop meeting my friends and reject all collegueas invitations to be by her side.
Two incident- one which was i message my ex girlfriend out of anger while we are quarreling ( just to get her on fire) and the other girl who is interested in me . Despite all this messages, i never once went out with them or even have a cup of coffee together. it's just purely messages.
She show her unhappiness but sometimes i just reply for the sake of replying, not having any other intentions.
I told her many times that they were just messages and i only love her till today but yet she insist that my heart contains some other lady .
I felt so devastated, all this happen always when i'm at work. i have to juggle between work and personal life ensuring that it's not affecting me at work.
I don't have enough rest and i appear so restless at work.
Now that we quarrel she expect me to always give in and she's always not forgetting the messaging incident.
I don't get it when physically at the end of the day, i was always by her side i don't even have time alone to be outside , i did all this hope that she understand it's my way of assurance to her.
Recently the arguements get really often and i'm really finding myself getting tire of all this nonsesnse
I really don't know what to do.
I do love her, very much infact , i don't splurge on myself and i spent everything on her. i wake up every morning to work and put bread on the table for her and the child. i gave her the best of everything and endure on my part.
She now doubt my love, and she no longer see the facts anymore.
Is it time to let go? or her love just isn't here anymore?
-----
To this beautiful lady of mine,
I know you visit this forum long ago but if you chance upon this i hope you know that i always love you , despite my wrong-doings, it never was my intention to flirt or be with any of them. The start of our journey was a rough one, i hope you remember that it isn't easy to take us to who we have evolve. This little baby is a child from heaven. Your the lady i have always love . despite little support from our parents, i really did the very best i can to make everything work. A rollercoaster ride goes up and down, i hope at the very end of the ride, we would be there together to enjoy the thrill and experience and carrying on the next ride of our life. I love you still , and i always did.
It's just you.
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