Heavenlina
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I would like to share my life story which has not come to an end but the journey along the way is full with hurt and pain..
I got to know my husband in 1997 in school, those days he was courting after me very hard but our relationship only lasted for 1/2 a year as i felt that we have not seen enough and initiate to go our separate ways. He was badly hurt and soon after he was with a kind-hearted lady who loves him deeply for long time.
Along the time, we still contacted each other on and off till one day, his gf found out that he was still contacting me and reuqested him to stop. He had make a decision and told me that he will not call me again. I accepted it as i felt im the one who gave up him in the 1st place.
Two years later, we met again and this time round, nothing seem to stop us, within a month, we are together and he has abandoned his gf because of me. Though we both felt very bad at heart but nevertheless never really think of how the other will feel as we are both young and impulsive..
Time flies, we ROM in the year 2003 and got customary marriage in 2004, gave birth to a beautiful daughter in that year too. Everything seems fine, a simple and yet happy family. What else can i ask for?
But due to our sturbborn character, we fight a lot in the last 2 years. Our marriage was not as smooth sailing but me being so naive, always thought that "HE" will never leave me, never leave this family as i always believe in fate, after seaparted for two years in our young days and we can still get back together, its really fate.
Im just too naive!! Last year december, after a confrontation as i saw some pics with him and one lady in his FB, he told me that he want to divorce. I must admit i have ever mentioned the word "D" in the past but i have never meant it in my heart and this time round, i can sense the seriousness. Somthing is not right somewhere as i felt his persistence in pursuing the "D"..
I spent one whole month talking to him when there's a chance (everything especially our daughter) but nothing seems to hit him. He felt that im very naggy and use this as an excuse for not coming back home. Initially was everyday out but will come back home, slowly it become once a week and he will stay the night outside, till now sometimes can hit twice a week..He has forced in a way to cut all communications with me, deleted me off from his FB, stop talking to me only when necessary, outcast me from his friends. We are now living in our own world though under one roof. He is seldom home and sad to say both my gal and myself can only see him when the sky gets dark everyday. He will usually comes home in the middle of the night. Towards my gal, he has somehow distant himself from her too which my gal can sense it too.
Though i know by instinct that he is having an affair outside but i chose to keep mum about it as i want to keep this family, i want my gal to have a complete family just like the other kids. I just pray and hope for miracle, hope that one day, he will realised and return to this family which belong to him. Now that i have stop communicating with him, just dun noe wat to tok due to the hurt, and he did not mentioned about the "D"..but no one knows what exactly on his mind and what is he thinking about?
This is a very tough journey for me and my daughter and many times i will fall off-track due to the hurt he has given us...but God is still good to me in some ways, i have a good boss and a few supportive colics and friends who are always there for me when i fall....they will comfort and give me advises, most imptly, they lend me their listening ears which pick me up again and walk thru the journey.
My vision is not clear, i dun noe what's my direction and i dun noe where am i heading to? Where is my destination? Will i see sunshine after the rain? Too many uncertainties but right now as im not willing to give up my 13yrs relationship/marriage just because of a few months affair as i felt that its not worth to let go just like that. On the other hand, i think of my gal and i think he too is thinking of her.
So sorry, guess my story is too long to share but i just need to let go by writing...
I got to know my husband in 1997 in school, those days he was courting after me very hard but our relationship only lasted for 1/2 a year as i felt that we have not seen enough and initiate to go our separate ways. He was badly hurt and soon after he was with a kind-hearted lady who loves him deeply for long time.
Along the time, we still contacted each other on and off till one day, his gf found out that he was still contacting me and reuqested him to stop. He had make a decision and told me that he will not call me again. I accepted it as i felt im the one who gave up him in the 1st place.
Two years later, we met again and this time round, nothing seem to stop us, within a month, we are together and he has abandoned his gf because of me. Though we both felt very bad at heart but nevertheless never really think of how the other will feel as we are both young and impulsive..
Time flies, we ROM in the year 2003 and got customary marriage in 2004, gave birth to a beautiful daughter in that year too. Everything seems fine, a simple and yet happy family. What else can i ask for?
But due to our sturbborn character, we fight a lot in the last 2 years. Our marriage was not as smooth sailing but me being so naive, always thought that "HE" will never leave me, never leave this family as i always believe in fate, after seaparted for two years in our young days and we can still get back together, its really fate.
Im just too naive!! Last year december, after a confrontation as i saw some pics with him and one lady in his FB, he told me that he want to divorce. I must admit i have ever mentioned the word "D" in the past but i have never meant it in my heart and this time round, i can sense the seriousness. Somthing is not right somewhere as i felt his persistence in pursuing the "D"..
I spent one whole month talking to him when there's a chance (everything especially our daughter) but nothing seems to hit him. He felt that im very naggy and use this as an excuse for not coming back home. Initially was everyday out but will come back home, slowly it become once a week and he will stay the night outside, till now sometimes can hit twice a week..He has forced in a way to cut all communications with me, deleted me off from his FB, stop talking to me only when necessary, outcast me from his friends. We are now living in our own world though under one roof. He is seldom home and sad to say both my gal and myself can only see him when the sky gets dark everyday. He will usually comes home in the middle of the night. Towards my gal, he has somehow distant himself from her too which my gal can sense it too.
Though i know by instinct that he is having an affair outside but i chose to keep mum about it as i want to keep this family, i want my gal to have a complete family just like the other kids. I just pray and hope for miracle, hope that one day, he will realised and return to this family which belong to him. Now that i have stop communicating with him, just dun noe wat to tok due to the hurt, and he did not mentioned about the "D"..but no one knows what exactly on his mind and what is he thinking about?
This is a very tough journey for me and my daughter and many times i will fall off-track due to the hurt he has given us...but God is still good to me in some ways, i have a good boss and a few supportive colics and friends who are always there for me when i fall....they will comfort and give me advises, most imptly, they lend me their listening ears which pick me up again and walk thru the journey.
My vision is not clear, i dun noe what's my direction and i dun noe where am i heading to? Where is my destination? Will i see sunshine after the rain? Too many uncertainties but right now as im not willing to give up my 13yrs relationship/marriage just because of a few months affair as i felt that its not worth to let go just like that. On the other hand, i think of my gal and i think he too is thinking of her.
So sorry, guess my story is too long to share but i just need to let go by writing...
