zhuzhu_41
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I do feel that I'm having depression don't know since when.
When I got very angry, anger blinds me and I start doing things which I don't use to do.
When DH and me quarrel, and when he said something that I don't like to hear, I just slap him and kick him.
And when my baby irritates me like eg, crying non-stop. Making noise for no reason. ANd when I get real fed-up, I just spank her and shout at her.
Today morning, when I see her so messy becos of the porridge, I just stuff all the porridge into her mouth and force her to eat. And she started crying and I just push e high chair she's sitting on real hard. I tink my MIL also shock to see me lidat.
ANd when I'm all alone with baby sleeping beside me, my thoughts start to run wild again. And tears just fall automatically. I start to think whether my Hubby is having an affair outside? Or is he flirting behind my back? Y he always treat me so unfairly? M i really that impt to him? Y the attention I wan fm him is never there?
And what ever he says to me, I take it to heart very seriously.
Divorce has been in my mind these few days cos I cant stand the way he treats me.
Izit I'm the one with the problem or he?
The attention I want frm him is never there. Moreover, I had some unhappiness with my ILS recently.
I just feel so tiired of my everything and has ever pack my bag and want to leave. But DH stop me. He say he understand my position. But he's not doin anything to it.
He's always doing things that make me so upset and irritated.
When I got very angry, anger blinds me and I start doing things which I don't use to do.
When DH and me quarrel, and when he said something that I don't like to hear, I just slap him and kick him.
And when my baby irritates me like eg, crying non-stop. Making noise for no reason. ANd when I get real fed-up, I just spank her and shout at her.
Today morning, when I see her so messy becos of the porridge, I just stuff all the porridge into her mouth and force her to eat. And she started crying and I just push e high chair she's sitting on real hard. I tink my MIL also shock to see me lidat.
ANd when I'm all alone with baby sleeping beside me, my thoughts start to run wild again. And tears just fall automatically. I start to think whether my Hubby is having an affair outside? Or is he flirting behind my back? Y he always treat me so unfairly? M i really that impt to him? Y the attention I wan fm him is never there?
And what ever he says to me, I take it to heart very seriously.
Divorce has been in my mind these few days cos I cant stand the way he treats me.
Izit I'm the one with the problem or he?
The attention I want frm him is never there. Moreover, I had some unhappiness with my ILS recently.
I just feel so tiired of my everything and has ever pack my bag and want to leave. But DH stop me. He say he understand my position. But he's not doin anything to it.
He's always doing things that make me so upset and irritated.