iseearainbow
New Member
i know i sound negative.. but allow me to air my unhappiness and grudges if not i think i will go into prenatal blues and possibly post natal depression when my baby comes out... i have been crying pretty badly these few months and nobody's care..
i have an insensitive, heartless and inconsiderate hubby.. to add on his mum always approve his son's actions and my mum willingly acknowledge that but still defends him making me feeling more miserable when i have no one to pour my sorrows to... the only reason i can think of my mum defending him is bc she dun want our marriage to break down as my baby is at stake.. i love my mum but i feel miserable when she couldn't stand on my side..
it is really my fault in the end as i choose to stay with him and carrying his baby despite knowing he is a changed man who only cares about himself...
during my 6 months pregnancy, he rarely shows any love and concern for me nor his child, even his mum hardly cooks anything nutritious for me (frequency can use 1 hand to count at the most).. to top that his mum stated very clearly do not depend on her for my confinement nor caring for the baby bc she is already booked, looking after her daughter's precious girl. Fyi, im also carrying a baby girl... i am guilty i feel sad im not carrying a boy bc i always feel being girl is more tough than boy and i dun want my child to suffer like me.. my mum is very old, almost coming to 70, and i really feel apologetic that she has to do confinement for me and helping me taking care of my baby when i have to go to work.. of coz i have the option of employing CL and maid but i worry abt financial bc the man wasnt going to spend on us and requested everything to be split equally; wedding, family planning, renovation etc etc.....
i already have thoughts of the family being split up after marrying him less than a month... this man is stingy to me physically and emotionally(hardly shower me with love and concern).. he knew i am upset/angry and when i cry terribly, he never flinch and give in to me.. i have to cry badly in the end and ask him to hug me to make myself more stable in which he do so unwillingly.. instead of calming me down and consoling me, he choose to fight with me in his words to hurt me further... yes maybe he did not love me but to a stranger would you treat a person so badly? we are always pointing fingers at each other, always at the opposite side of each other, this kind rs will fail ultimately, everyone can see it but he just couldn't be a gentleman for once & try to understand me first.. communication breakdown is the major cause i would say... whenever i try to communicate with him, he will be sarcastic and not cooperating.. all i wish is he try to stand in my shoe, feel for me as his wife; alot of ppl say you marry a wife to treat her good but i feel that he marry me is to make me suffer, he feel the same too and say i purposely want to make him miserable... there are always 2 sides of stories and i guess he or anyone will ever be able to see the side of my story...
thank you for reading, i rarely write such thoughts online now.. coz i am bad in expressing myself.. but the more i keep to myself, im afraid i will affect my baby character/temper/mood.. i want her to grow up happy, cheerful & contented.. i should be grateful.. for having a baby just that i am not confident being a gd example for her... gratitude is hard to maintain when im feeling so miserable crying...
dear mummies, pls do share w me how to raise a happy, cheerful and healthy kid with me... the battle im fighting alone, but im sure the gd souls and god will help me one way or another...
i have an insensitive, heartless and inconsiderate hubby.. to add on his mum always approve his son's actions and my mum willingly acknowledge that but still defends him making me feeling more miserable when i have no one to pour my sorrows to... the only reason i can think of my mum defending him is bc she dun want our marriage to break down as my baby is at stake.. i love my mum but i feel miserable when she couldn't stand on my side..
it is really my fault in the end as i choose to stay with him and carrying his baby despite knowing he is a changed man who only cares about himself...
during my 6 months pregnancy, he rarely shows any love and concern for me nor his child, even his mum hardly cooks anything nutritious for me (frequency can use 1 hand to count at the most).. to top that his mum stated very clearly do not depend on her for my confinement nor caring for the baby bc she is already booked, looking after her daughter's precious girl. Fyi, im also carrying a baby girl... i am guilty i feel sad im not carrying a boy bc i always feel being girl is more tough than boy and i dun want my child to suffer like me.. my mum is very old, almost coming to 70, and i really feel apologetic that she has to do confinement for me and helping me taking care of my baby when i have to go to work.. of coz i have the option of employing CL and maid but i worry abt financial bc the man wasnt going to spend on us and requested everything to be split equally; wedding, family planning, renovation etc etc.....
i already have thoughts of the family being split up after marrying him less than a month... this man is stingy to me physically and emotionally(hardly shower me with love and concern).. he knew i am upset/angry and when i cry terribly, he never flinch and give in to me.. i have to cry badly in the end and ask him to hug me to make myself more stable in which he do so unwillingly.. instead of calming me down and consoling me, he choose to fight with me in his words to hurt me further... yes maybe he did not love me but to a stranger would you treat a person so badly? we are always pointing fingers at each other, always at the opposite side of each other, this kind rs will fail ultimately, everyone can see it but he just couldn't be a gentleman for once & try to understand me first.. communication breakdown is the major cause i would say... whenever i try to communicate with him, he will be sarcastic and not cooperating.. all i wish is he try to stand in my shoe, feel for me as his wife; alot of ppl say you marry a wife to treat her good but i feel that he marry me is to make me suffer, he feel the same too and say i purposely want to make him miserable... there are always 2 sides of stories and i guess he or anyone will ever be able to see the side of my story...
thank you for reading, i rarely write such thoughts online now.. coz i am bad in expressing myself.. but the more i keep to myself, im afraid i will affect my baby character/temper/mood.. i want her to grow up happy, cheerful & contented.. i should be grateful.. for having a baby just that i am not confident being a gd example for her... gratitude is hard to maintain when im feeling so miserable crying...
dear mummies, pls do share w me how to raise a happy, cheerful and healthy kid with me... the battle im fighting alone, but im sure the gd souls and god will help me one way or another...