sillysilly
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Hi all.
I am feeling suicidal lately and cant focus on anything at all. I am now about to 8 months pregnant and been crying almost everyday even before being pregnant.
I am feeling afraid and very lost. I feel alot of stress. And i have got tons of things to worry about.
My man is always busy at work Mon to fridays and not around with me during the weekends at all.
I dont see him at all. We are not married. But im having his child. He never pays for any of my consultations fees, hospitalisation fees or visit me when im being awarded when i had bleedings for a few times.
I went for an abortion for him 2 times and had a mscarriage which i attribute to being to depressed and upset at that point of time- not eating and crying and running about.
It has bee and like this for years. We will meet for lunch daily and talk about everything. Go for occasional movies and ktvs. Spend an hour of quality bonding time.
he will give an evening once in a blue moon.
He will buy me really nice stuffs quite frequently too. Will bring me out for nice meals and gifts during special ocassions.
I was contented already. knowing that he has me in his heart is enough for me. I tell myself, its ok.
Now, for the past 2 years, he's been ignoring me. Everyday he tells me he is terrribly busy at work, he forgets our anniversaries, my birthdys and never took the initiative to wish me during christmas, new years...we dont even meet at all.
i feel so sad.
i spent 4 years of my life, putting him on top of my priorities, trying to be understanding towards his work.
Its been 2 yrs that he has been treating me cold and hot.
Sometimes whn we fight, he will disappear on me for days and weeks and not show any concern at all.
There wil be no calls, no sms, nothing at all.
He never address me as anyone, no more darling and loving stuffs. he talks to me like i am just an aquaintance he just know.
i try to be understanding. I give him space and time. I dont bother him at work these days and have not met him for ages already.
I try to handle alot of things on my own and sometimes i feel so overwhlemed by all, i just break down and sit in a daze.
He says he has feelings for me.
But its been almost a year we even hold hands or hug. there is just no affectionate moves like what a couple should have.
He never buys me anything at all for my baby since my pregnancy days till now and often screams at me and hang up on me when all i want is a listening ear and some reactions and concern. But he never ever react or respond whenever i talk to him about baby son.
at first i thought he is just being an insensitive man, but tell me, how can anyone be so busy until completely no care at all?
i tried talking to him, telling him how i feel, i spoke to him a thousand times, but he always nevr bother.
i am so depressed. Now that i am pregnant, i was advised not tocontinue with my pills and i find everything so hard to cope on my own.
I took a 4d ultrasound and told himabout it, thinking he would be excited and i was hoping he will say he wants to see how baby looks like.
But he didnt. He just leave it as it is when i told him.
I am upset that he didnt acompany me to buy maternity clothes, see baby stuffs or discuss. Upset that he didnt even want to help monetarily, emotionally nor physically.
I am feeling suicidal lately and cant focus on anything at all. I am now about to 8 months pregnant and been crying almost everyday even before being pregnant.
I am feeling afraid and very lost. I feel alot of stress. And i have got tons of things to worry about.
My man is always busy at work Mon to fridays and not around with me during the weekends at all.
I dont see him at all. We are not married. But im having his child. He never pays for any of my consultations fees, hospitalisation fees or visit me when im being awarded when i had bleedings for a few times.
I went for an abortion for him 2 times and had a mscarriage which i attribute to being to depressed and upset at that point of time- not eating and crying and running about.
It has bee and like this for years. We will meet for lunch daily and talk about everything. Go for occasional movies and ktvs. Spend an hour of quality bonding time.
he will give an evening once in a blue moon.
He will buy me really nice stuffs quite frequently too. Will bring me out for nice meals and gifts during special ocassions.
I was contented already. knowing that he has me in his heart is enough for me. I tell myself, its ok.
Now, for the past 2 years, he's been ignoring me. Everyday he tells me he is terrribly busy at work, he forgets our anniversaries, my birthdys and never took the initiative to wish me during christmas, new years...we dont even meet at all.
i feel so sad.
i spent 4 years of my life, putting him on top of my priorities, trying to be understanding towards his work.
Its been 2 yrs that he has been treating me cold and hot.
Sometimes whn we fight, he will disappear on me for days and weeks and not show any concern at all.
There wil be no calls, no sms, nothing at all.
He never address me as anyone, no more darling and loving stuffs. he talks to me like i am just an aquaintance he just know.
i try to be understanding. I give him space and time. I dont bother him at work these days and have not met him for ages already.
I try to handle alot of things on my own and sometimes i feel so overwhlemed by all, i just break down and sit in a daze.
He says he has feelings for me.
But its been almost a year we even hold hands or hug. there is just no affectionate moves like what a couple should have.
He never buys me anything at all for my baby since my pregnancy days till now and often screams at me and hang up on me when all i want is a listening ear and some reactions and concern. But he never ever react or respond whenever i talk to him about baby son.
at first i thought he is just being an insensitive man, but tell me, how can anyone be so busy until completely no care at all?
i tried talking to him, telling him how i feel, i spoke to him a thousand times, but he always nevr bother.
i am so depressed. Now that i am pregnant, i was advised not tocontinue with my pills and i find everything so hard to cope on my own.
I took a 4d ultrasound and told himabout it, thinking he would be excited and i was hoping he will say he wants to see how baby looks like.
But he didnt. He just leave it as it is when i told him.
I am upset that he didnt acompany me to buy maternity clothes, see baby stuffs or discuss. Upset that he didnt even want to help monetarily, emotionally nor physically.
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