Pinkyinbaby88
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Need a place to vent my problems and maybe some advices on the issue.. :tsad:
Currently i'm preggy with my 2nd child and truthfully to say is that I feel this baby is gonna be my burden and not eager for the birth at all unlike my 1st pregnancy.
I even tot of secretly abort the baby with my hubby knowledge but somehow there's something stopping me and I dunno how to explain it.
My hubby was a 100% good daddy or husband as he betrayed me when my 1st baby was only 4months old after birth and it takes me 2 whole years to really gain back the family again.
He blamed me for been too possessive towards him on his privacy during that time and I was complaining too much to him about taking care baby alone. Which makes him went out to stray and neglected the family. I was not strong enough to leave this man as my love for him was stronger and stupid, whereas I believe somehow we can manage thru the journey as time goes by.
All these while my hubby has been chatting with online girls and I doesn't even know the topic as I was afraid of breaking the family again. My heart telling me something is wrong and not right in the current situation but I was to coward to voice out. He ever told me once that is hard to communicate with me and chatting online makes him feel more stress-free but assure me there's nothing beyond the line.
I trusted him once and let him chat online, but never knows these leads him to stray with the girl outside 3 years ago. This time round I told him that I can close one eye and let him chat as even I, myself find it hard to talk to him and really need a friend to listen to my sorrow. But no crossing over the line and have girls calling him up in his mobile or sms as this is way too unbearable for me.
I scared that history will repeats again as other says, leopard would never change it's spots! His character is like those "below itchy for young girls" to chat or even know them more better de.. I really clueless on what can I do to make myself feel better as i believe this will somehow affect my 2 children in near future.
Everyday thinking that will he betrayed me again? How can I afford to take care 2 children if this happens again? Should I opt for immediate abortion now to prevent this child from suffering like my elder child??
I really feel stupid on loving such a guy and not strong enough to leave him.
Currently i'm preggy with my 2nd child and truthfully to say is that I feel this baby is gonna be my burden and not eager for the birth at all unlike my 1st pregnancy.
I even tot of secretly abort the baby with my hubby knowledge but somehow there's something stopping me and I dunno how to explain it.
My hubby was a 100% good daddy or husband as he betrayed me when my 1st baby was only 4months old after birth and it takes me 2 whole years to really gain back the family again.
He blamed me for been too possessive towards him on his privacy during that time and I was complaining too much to him about taking care baby alone. Which makes him went out to stray and neglected the family. I was not strong enough to leave this man as my love for him was stronger and stupid, whereas I believe somehow we can manage thru the journey as time goes by.
All these while my hubby has been chatting with online girls and I doesn't even know the topic as I was afraid of breaking the family again. My heart telling me something is wrong and not right in the current situation but I was to coward to voice out. He ever told me once that is hard to communicate with me and chatting online makes him feel more stress-free but assure me there's nothing beyond the line.
I trusted him once and let him chat online, but never knows these leads him to stray with the girl outside 3 years ago. This time round I told him that I can close one eye and let him chat as even I, myself find it hard to talk to him and really need a friend to listen to my sorrow. But no crossing over the line and have girls calling him up in his mobile or sms as this is way too unbearable for me.
I scared that history will repeats again as other says, leopard would never change it's spots! His character is like those "below itchy for young girls" to chat or even know them more better de.. I really clueless on what can I do to make myself feel better as i believe this will somehow affect my 2 children in near future.
Everyday thinking that will he betrayed me again? How can I afford to take care 2 children if this happens again? Should I opt for immediate abortion now to prevent this child from suffering like my elder child??
I really feel stupid on loving such a guy and not strong enough to leave him.