i think its time for me to share my story.
i came from a broken family, i was given to my grandparents after my parents were divorced. i do not know what is mother's love till today. since young i wanted to start my own family becos i longed for it.
i was pregnant when i was only 15 yrs old, i was married to a 18 yrs old, not knowing what is love and what is a marriage. yes, things dont work out and i divorced. my gal is called melissa. i was granted her custody. i worked for 13 hours as a cashier that time to make sure i earn enough for her.
i met a guy at my workplace and another kind of life started. 4 yrs of of are/s which i thought everything will be alright tis round.i was pregnant again and we decided to get married. bt, i caught him having affairs with other woman, not one bt many. i had a miscarriage the next day and on the same day, i pack my things and leave. i lost 10 kg, everyday dreaming all alone,
i went around have sex with guys i dont know and mix around with bad companies and i started to abuse drugs, tis went on for a few days when one of the bad friend ask me to smuggle china ppl to los angelas, i did it for money and i was arrested, jailed in germany for 3 mths, i quit my drugs there and ever since i did not touch again till now. that moment, melissa was the only one i cant get rid of my mind, i realized i have forsaken her these few yrs.
i was back to singapore on 23rd dec 2004. again, a man called patrick came to know me, a gentleman looking who is very diff from my circle of friends. after 8 mths, we got married, and gave birth to my second dau, melinin. we had our own flat as well, bt i still dont know why things would turn out to be ugly again, i dont understand. i did not fight for the custody tis time, my view has changed.
i bear with the pain to part with melinin becos i know i am not able to provide her the best if i gotta support 2 of them. when i was so so so down, another man came into my life, kelvin. i wondered why do i fall in love with someone so easily. in my whole life, being together with kelvin is the biggest mistake i have ever made. i have never come across a man who take drugs almost everyday, gamble everyday, tell lies everyday.
i must keep my facebook password, msn password to myself cos he would use my acc to borrow money from my friends. i must hide my money and atm card otherwise my money will be gone in just a few seconds. why should i go through all these? is there never a sucess for me in are/s? my love and tears seems cheap. only the god knows my suffering, i swallow every bits of pain down to my throat, no one else know.
i bear with the pain to call the police to get kelvin arrested, he thinks i love it bt its not true. i feel painful bt i have no choice. to think that the IO told me they can do nothing as the drug he taken is not a controlled drugs. he carried on the drugs, its the 3rd your now, we rented a rm from others, he melissa and me staying in that rm, every sunday melinin coming hm till next morning. i cant see any better future together with him, he seems like a devil more to me, he is evil.
he deliperately provoke my 2nd ex husband and now i am allowed to see melinin again. i am tired, sickening, i want to move out of his life, bt he will continue to make things difficult for me, i dont know hw am i to overcm tis disaster.
i ord had two failed marriage. melissa is ord 11 yrs old, melinin is only 4, my life is a mess
i came from a broken family, i was given to my grandparents after my parents were divorced. i do not know what is mother's love till today. since young i wanted to start my own family becos i longed for it.
i was pregnant when i was only 15 yrs old, i was married to a 18 yrs old, not knowing what is love and what is a marriage. yes, things dont work out and i divorced. my gal is called melissa. i was granted her custody. i worked for 13 hours as a cashier that time to make sure i earn enough for her.
i met a guy at my workplace and another kind of life started. 4 yrs of of are/s which i thought everything will be alright tis round.i was pregnant again and we decided to get married. bt, i caught him having affairs with other woman, not one bt many. i had a miscarriage the next day and on the same day, i pack my things and leave. i lost 10 kg, everyday dreaming all alone,
i went around have sex with guys i dont know and mix around with bad companies and i started to abuse drugs, tis went on for a few days when one of the bad friend ask me to smuggle china ppl to los angelas, i did it for money and i was arrested, jailed in germany for 3 mths, i quit my drugs there and ever since i did not touch again till now. that moment, melissa was the only one i cant get rid of my mind, i realized i have forsaken her these few yrs.
i was back to singapore on 23rd dec 2004. again, a man called patrick came to know me, a gentleman looking who is very diff from my circle of friends. after 8 mths, we got married, and gave birth to my second dau, melinin. we had our own flat as well, bt i still dont know why things would turn out to be ugly again, i dont understand. i did not fight for the custody tis time, my view has changed.
i bear with the pain to part with melinin becos i know i am not able to provide her the best if i gotta support 2 of them. when i was so so so down, another man came into my life, kelvin. i wondered why do i fall in love with someone so easily. in my whole life, being together with kelvin is the biggest mistake i have ever made. i have never come across a man who take drugs almost everyday, gamble everyday, tell lies everyday.
i must keep my facebook password, msn password to myself cos he would use my acc to borrow money from my friends. i must hide my money and atm card otherwise my money will be gone in just a few seconds. why should i go through all these? is there never a sucess for me in are/s? my love and tears seems cheap. only the god knows my suffering, i swallow every bits of pain down to my throat, no one else know.
i bear with the pain to call the police to get kelvin arrested, he thinks i love it bt its not true. i feel painful bt i have no choice. to think that the IO told me they can do nothing as the drug he taken is not a controlled drugs. he carried on the drugs, its the 3rd your now, we rented a rm from others, he melissa and me staying in that rm, every sunday melinin coming hm till next morning. i cant see any better future together with him, he seems like a devil more to me, he is evil.
he deliperately provoke my 2nd ex husband and now i am allowed to see melinin again. i am tired, sickening, i want to move out of his life, bt he will continue to make things difficult for me, i dont know hw am i to overcm tis disaster.
i ord had two failed marriage. melissa is ord 11 yrs old, melinin is only 4, my life is a mess
