`julee
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i believe marriage has to have trust & love. and it comes with a responsibility esp with a family...
sadly... my hb hav been working on and off since we married.. i fell into depression after giving birth.. the lost of my friends, the wake of reality and hard life.. and he always going out leaving me and baby alone at night. i cried every night hugging my bb close to me...
after that i got so use to it, i didnt care much.. i knew i had to trust him.
the longest time he stayed in a job is 3months.. tats it... and most of the time, its either my parents or his mom sponsor us.. its getting really tiring to WAKE HIM UP. its been 2 years.. and he is jobless.... he doesnt let me work & many time i go against him & still find a job.. i cheated on him once because i was so UP to hurting him soooo much.. i din realise it will hurt me more.. i know it was my mistake and i was up to making it up to him....
i know i had to make this marriage work..
the last job i did, he ask me for money....!!! to pay his monthly installment of his bike!! i was earning peanuts, jus enuff for my transportation to work & my dd's monthly needs.. even wen i was working, i had to send my dd to my granny & pick her up after work, and hardly even if he is not working he looks after her.. he only does wen i FORCE him too...
i ask for a divorce but he didnt want it & cried and told me he will change.. he got a good job. i tot he changed.. but he took MC every other day.. feels like his salary going to doctor for his MC...
and now he is jobless again...
i tried to find another job, he took care of dd while i go for an interview.. we got into a quarrel cause he thinks i am lying to him. he tried to commit suicide with dd.. i arrive jus in time to get a punch from him to ask me to go away from dd since i was a sluty mother... and he threaten to commit suicide and even carry dd up the stairs.. i called the police..
i din charge him cause i was had my mistakes to.. even the policemen say that i wont get my dd if i divorce him cause i cheated on him.. (?? back then it made sense somehow...)
my parents got so pissed off at him & told him if he cant take care of me & dd they can. after all this time, they hav been. they always bring us food, bring us out & buy us clothes.. hb onli does this to make me happy & most of the time its his mother's money... his mother dote on him so much that wenever he ask for money she gives, usuali because she pity that her grand-daughter hav no milk.. but because of that, my hb becomes very dependant on her and that he noes even if he doesnt work, his wife & daughter still have food.
i never told anyone this but my mother seem to find out on her own...
he doesnt let me work yet he doesnt work. & if i go against him, he asks me for money...
he takes money from his mother.
he is hardly home even wen he doesnt work...
he always leave us alone at home.
wen mil & i nag, he will ask us to shut up.
wen my mom nag he cries & says he will change & get a job.. but he never do.. this is like sooo many times already.. he is never at the same job for longer than 2 weeks... and then he jus sits at home or with his friends.. in front of other people he will boast about "his" job.. i had enough of covering his backside..
& wenever we fight about his job he will accuse me for not being loving to him. being guilty of cheating him, i will close one eye about his job and tell him to change....... and after that he will force me to hav sex with him.. wen i say no, he says i don love him.. and wen i say that love is not sex and that even my mom dont want u in the house, i still thick face and bring him in....
my feelings for him faded so much that i don like him to touch me..
i feel so troubled.. my mom says i am so stupid to marry a useless bum... his mom surrenders and says i should go to work since he is lazy to work...
i don love him much anymore.. he promise me so much and didnt deliver any... he was all sweet words... wat kind of father doesnt work? wat kind of hubby doesnt give me lunch money?? he only give us money wen my mom starts to nag... then it will b back to square one.. i have kept quiet long enuff.. i cant stand him. i dono if he could change anymore. he cried and beg me to give him another chance and i did.. but he didnt....
i am scared of divorcing him; afraid i will not get my child custody.. afraid tat he do and try to kill himself & dd again... i am so afraid.. i dono wat to do.................
sadly... my hb hav been working on and off since we married.. i fell into depression after giving birth.. the lost of my friends, the wake of reality and hard life.. and he always going out leaving me and baby alone at night. i cried every night hugging my bb close to me...
after that i got so use to it, i didnt care much.. i knew i had to trust him.
the longest time he stayed in a job is 3months.. tats it... and most of the time, its either my parents or his mom sponsor us.. its getting really tiring to WAKE HIM UP. its been 2 years.. and he is jobless.... he doesnt let me work & many time i go against him & still find a job.. i cheated on him once because i was so UP to hurting him soooo much.. i din realise it will hurt me more.. i know it was my mistake and i was up to making it up to him....
i know i had to make this marriage work..
the last job i did, he ask me for money....!!! to pay his monthly installment of his bike!! i was earning peanuts, jus enuff for my transportation to work & my dd's monthly needs.. even wen i was working, i had to send my dd to my granny & pick her up after work, and hardly even if he is not working he looks after her.. he only does wen i FORCE him too...
i ask for a divorce but he didnt want it & cried and told me he will change.. he got a good job. i tot he changed.. but he took MC every other day.. feels like his salary going to doctor for his MC...
and now he is jobless again...
i tried to find another job, he took care of dd while i go for an interview.. we got into a quarrel cause he thinks i am lying to him. he tried to commit suicide with dd.. i arrive jus in time to get a punch from him to ask me to go away from dd since i was a sluty mother... and he threaten to commit suicide and even carry dd up the stairs.. i called the police..
i din charge him cause i was had my mistakes to.. even the policemen say that i wont get my dd if i divorce him cause i cheated on him.. (?? back then it made sense somehow...)
my parents got so pissed off at him & told him if he cant take care of me & dd they can. after all this time, they hav been. they always bring us food, bring us out & buy us clothes.. hb onli does this to make me happy & most of the time its his mother's money... his mother dote on him so much that wenever he ask for money she gives, usuali because she pity that her grand-daughter hav no milk.. but because of that, my hb becomes very dependant on her and that he noes even if he doesnt work, his wife & daughter still have food.
i never told anyone this but my mother seem to find out on her own...
he doesnt let me work yet he doesnt work. & if i go against him, he asks me for money...
he takes money from his mother.
he is hardly home even wen he doesnt work...
he always leave us alone at home.
wen mil & i nag, he will ask us to shut up.
wen my mom nag he cries & says he will change & get a job.. but he never do.. this is like sooo many times already.. he is never at the same job for longer than 2 weeks... and then he jus sits at home or with his friends.. in front of other people he will boast about "his" job.. i had enough of covering his backside..
& wenever we fight about his job he will accuse me for not being loving to him. being guilty of cheating him, i will close one eye about his job and tell him to change....... and after that he will force me to hav sex with him.. wen i say no, he says i don love him.. and wen i say that love is not sex and that even my mom dont want u in the house, i still thick face and bring him in....
my feelings for him faded so much that i don like him to touch me..
i feel so troubled.. my mom says i am so stupid to marry a useless bum... his mom surrenders and says i should go to work since he is lazy to work...
i don love him much anymore.. he promise me so much and didnt deliver any... he was all sweet words... wat kind of father doesnt work? wat kind of hubby doesnt give me lunch money?? he only give us money wen my mom starts to nag... then it will b back to square one.. i have kept quiet long enuff.. i cant stand him. i dono if he could change anymore. he cried and beg me to give him another chance and i did.. but he didnt....
i am scared of divorcing him; afraid i will not get my child custody.. afraid tat he do and try to kill himself & dd again... i am so afraid.. i dono wat to do.................