faithmummy
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i don't know how common miscarriage are in most women's cases as per what the doctor told me.
i lost my bb on Sunday (it is about 8 weeks and ironically, it is a fathers' day)... i never dreamt that miscarriage will happen to me.... i didn't smoke or drink alcohol... though i do not take supplements too (i kept blaming myself for this) .... but i tried my best to eat healthy food whenever i can (though sometimes indulged in my cravings).... i don't know why it happen... i think it is my fault, and i cannot stop crying.... it has been with me for 8 weeks and i lost it... i am at a loss now... i don't know how to continue working next week.
Everyone been telling me that i am still young, (which i am not, i am already 31 years old), i can still have healthy babies in future. But no matter how many babies i have in future, they will never be able to replace this poor baby that i had lost, he didn't even have the chance to see the world.... and i know it is definitely my fault... i took it for granted. and I did not see a Gynae immediately due to busy schedule..... i caused everything.....now i only hope for a chance to do something for my poor baby to make up for him.... but i know there is nothing i can do anymore...
i name him faith after losing him.... i hope faith can keep me going in life..... i don't know if it is a boy or gal, but somehow deep inside me, i have a feeling he is a boy, even though i had been wishing for a gal for first born.
i still have to pretend to be happy and well in front of my parents... because they are so old already, they are already very upset with the loss of their grandchild and i do not want to upset them further by being unhappy.
My husband and parents are being very supportive these period... Some of my colleagues and friends are also upset when they hear the news...
Sorry for my long post..
I only wish to rant my unhappiness here..... hope someone can give me some guidance .....
i lost my bb on Sunday (it is about 8 weeks and ironically, it is a fathers' day)... i never dreamt that miscarriage will happen to me.... i didn't smoke or drink alcohol... though i do not take supplements too (i kept blaming myself for this) .... but i tried my best to eat healthy food whenever i can (though sometimes indulged in my cravings).... i don't know why it happen... i think it is my fault, and i cannot stop crying.... it has been with me for 8 weeks and i lost it... i am at a loss now... i don't know how to continue working next week.
Everyone been telling me that i am still young, (which i am not, i am already 31 years old), i can still have healthy babies in future. But no matter how many babies i have in future, they will never be able to replace this poor baby that i had lost, he didn't even have the chance to see the world.... and i know it is definitely my fault... i took it for granted. and I did not see a Gynae immediately due to busy schedule..... i caused everything.....now i only hope for a chance to do something for my poor baby to make up for him.... but i know there is nothing i can do anymore...
i name him faith after losing him.... i hope faith can keep me going in life..... i don't know if it is a boy or gal, but somehow deep inside me, i have a feeling he is a boy, even though i had been wishing for a gal for first born.
i still have to pretend to be happy and well in front of my parents... because they are so old already, they are already very upset with the loss of their grandchild and i do not want to upset them further by being unhappy.
My husband and parents are being very supportive these period... Some of my colleagues and friends are also upset when they hear the news...
Sorry for my long post..
I only wish to rant my unhappiness here..... hope someone can give me some guidance .....