meiteoh
Well-Known Member
That's total bull! As if c-sec means it's easier for us. =.=ok phew. im not very weird after all. so many mommies didn't feel immediate bond.
Damn articles in magazines made me worry.
When i told my mom about it ...you ladies know what she said?
You csect case thats why you dont't love her. Never push your baby out. If you go for natural birth, SURE sayang the moment you see baby cos all your hard work is paid off. Same like your sister ...csect...where got sayang her son? At night can go out with husband, leave son at home to sleep.
O_O
To be quite frank, I wasn't very happy to get pregnant - I mean I was trying and when I did get pregnant, I was more worried because my first pregnancy resulted in a miscarriage and some drama. Then my hubs got retrenched and my parents became very meddlesome to the point where I couldn't even buy clothes for Eva without my mum having a say in it. I felt that I was pregnant not for me but for other people. You know how some women cry when they first hear their baby's heartbeat? Me? I just went "That's it ar?". :/
When I had her - how is beside the point - I instantly felt a connection with her. It wasn't love per se but this thing where you want to give your best and all for this little bundle. I felt proud at having brought such a lovely creature into the world...but it still wasn't "I love you, etc, etc".
THEN when the reality of me being a mum sank in, you could say that I wasn't so proud anymore. The move to Singapore, the confinement, having to put up with two meddling old people plus taking care of a newborn who was having difficulties transitioning from day to night...all that made me really down and I started to wonder if I was mother-material because I didn't feel the "gushy", "teary eyed" love at all. I got annoyed at her for crying non-stop a few times - even my hubs wasn't like that. =.=
Today, four months on, you could say that what I feel for her is more of a practical, "motherly" love and not so much the whole Hollywood type of love one should have for their baby (don't really know if this makes any sense - I'm drugged out on charcoal pills, Panadol and Smecta on the moment).