`julee
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update:
my hubby & i are seperated. he is staying at his mom house at this exact moment since thursday night. i tot this seperation would make us think better.
of coz, he refuse to get seperated at the first place, seeing how he scarie he became again, i had to do it. i am afraid tat something bad would happen to dd since he is not thinking right.
on friday night, he went to my (mummy) fren house and 'seek for pity-ness' frm her & her dh. my fren din noe wat to do. he was crying to her dh.. i dono wats his motive of doing that, but if he wans pity he should come to my house first ba.
he came at around 10.30pm and cry in front of our house and said he will change..
somehow, my heart has become cold and cruel.. i cant let this happen to me again & again...
this is making me confuse and i havent been eating or thinking right this few days. i dig back old memories hoping that i can smile and cherish those perfect moments.. i read my diary & blog entries back again... and i realise how much i written about how i wish he could change, how i wish he could get a job. this was till before our marriage even..
i bought dd out yesterday jus the two of us with my sister and i never have been happier. usuali out with dh we were always in a hurry & he usuali drag dd out of the toys department saying, there's no need to see toys if we cant buy it or saying that there is already too much toys at home. my dd enjoy playing at the toy department even wen i didnt buy anything.
there is one part of me that feel i should give him a chance. and scolding myself for being so cruel and cold hearted towards him these days...
and there is another part that feel that i can be happier without him. i am happier without him now. my dd doesnt even ask where her father is. and that if i give him another chance i am going to lose out... & i deft feel that i don love him anymore.
my family advises me to do wat is feels right. they have seen enough of me giving many chances and he failed to give us wat we need.
:embarrassed::embarrassed::embarrassed:
my hubby & i are seperated. he is staying at his mom house at this exact moment since thursday night. i tot this seperation would make us think better.
of coz, he refuse to get seperated at the first place, seeing how he scarie he became again, i had to do it. i am afraid tat something bad would happen to dd since he is not thinking right.
on friday night, he went to my (mummy) fren house and 'seek for pity-ness' frm her & her dh. my fren din noe wat to do. he was crying to her dh.. i dono wats his motive of doing that, but if he wans pity he should come to my house first ba.
he came at around 10.30pm and cry in front of our house and said he will change..
somehow, my heart has become cold and cruel.. i cant let this happen to me again & again...
this is making me confuse and i havent been eating or thinking right this few days. i dig back old memories hoping that i can smile and cherish those perfect moments.. i read my diary & blog entries back again... and i realise how much i written about how i wish he could change, how i wish he could get a job. this was till before our marriage even..
i bought dd out yesterday jus the two of us with my sister and i never have been happier. usuali out with dh we were always in a hurry & he usuali drag dd out of the toys department saying, there's no need to see toys if we cant buy it or saying that there is already too much toys at home. my dd enjoy playing at the toy department even wen i didnt buy anything.
there is one part of me that feel i should give him a chance. and scolding myself for being so cruel and cold hearted towards him these days...
and there is another part that feel that i can be happier without him. i am happier without him now. my dd doesnt even ask where her father is. and that if i give him another chance i am going to lose out... & i deft feel that i don love him anymore.
my family advises me to do wat is feels right. they have seen enough of me giving many chances and he failed to give us wat we need.
:embarrassed::embarrassed::embarrassed: