mich_liu82
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I'm kinda feeling down... As probably my hubby says I am just being emotional...
Wanted to write this in my blog, but I guess there might be no response and decided to write here...
I guess I have been thinking too much until I 'm kinda feeling depressed, worried that I can't take it anymore...
So many things I'm angry and disappointed about...
1. Stupid maid went back for vocation and play me out, didn't come back.
2. From then till now I've got a little help, as in my hubby's auntie just come over to help me feed baby when I am pumping my milk. Nowadays she more zi tong abit, at least help me hang laundry and wash cups if not previously I was doing everything myself, from washing and hanging of laundry, vacuuming, mopping, cleaning, packing. Can die!
3. Hubby's auntie dont know when everytime carry my #3 dear daughter, the diapers always will leak and overflow, then she say this brand no good, but when I using by myself, no problem at all...
4. 3rd week after maid left, I interviewed 1 maid and decided to have her transferred but the stupid transfer took so long and end up we decided to cancel it, but if i had waited, now I think I will have her already, dont know if I did a stupid choice.
5. In between, if you guys read my other threads, I had a part time maid that i wanted to employ her permanently but I decided too late, she was taken by sum1 else already. However, when she was working with me at dat time, while I was so called interviewing her, talking to her, my hubby stupid auntie kept interuppting and scaring her, keep saying dont play play with baby or whatever shit. Until i tulan, didn;t ask further, that caused me to decide abit later... I was thinking if I had been rude instead of showing respect with my hubby auntie by telling her to shut up when I am talking then this wouldn't have happen, if I had been firm then now I have that maid ... Everyday, i keep thinking of this until I goin depressed soon.
6. My kids, #1 dear daughter so far alright, just dat everytime when she shower come out, I gotta nag at her to dry her hair, have been saying for so long still can't listen. Everyday must ask her got hmwrk or not, if not she will just pretend and take a long time to do it. Evrytime call her, she like in dream land...
7. #2 dear daughter, terrible, very naughty... Everytime throw things everywhere, then dont wanna keep, in e end, always I keep, hubby will only keep when I nag. Then always spill drinks, food everywhere, then I have to keep cleaning ad cleaning...
8. Hubby, nowadays i dare not to talk much or nag much, worried he snap again... Bcoz I can't take it if he snaps again, I guess this timne round, I might snap even harder then him and go mad... When i ask him to help out, he got lots of reasons to give, like I dont like the way he help or what... He see me changing bedsheets, he dont even volunteer to help... See drink spill, he dont bother to clean...
9. Den sumtimes when hubby talk nicely to me, I duno why I jus can't ans him properly, I noe sumtimes he feels dat im feeling down so he tries to tell me happy things but I jus like very cold...
Me me me, everything its me... I think i wanna go berserk soon...
I dont know when can I get a new maid, hopefully soon as my agent looking out 1 for me...
Then I'm still breastfeeding, every 6 to 8 hours, I need to pump milk... I do find it tedious, wanted to give up, but for the sake of my #3 dear daughter, i keep holding on...
I feel like I dont have enough rest everyday... I'm so afraid that I will break down soon... But yet at the same time, I keep telling myself I am a mother of 3, I need to stay strong for them... Deep inside, I know I will crumble anytime...
As I'm typing this, I keep controlling my tears, dont 1 anyone to see it...
Last nite, I sms hubby tell him I cannot take it , wanna break down soon. yes, he did console me by replying the sms. He was in the bedroom while I was in the living room, he can't even come out to give me a hug or sumthing?
I know we can't talk face to face bcoz always end up quarreling that is why we send sms.
In a way, at least after penning everything down here, I did feel alittle relieve...
Sigh, whats wrong with me? Is it me? Or is it everyone else?
Wanted to write this in my blog, but I guess there might be no response and decided to write here...
I guess I have been thinking too much until I 'm kinda feeling depressed, worried that I can't take it anymore...
So many things I'm angry and disappointed about...
1. Stupid maid went back for vocation and play me out, didn't come back.
2. From then till now I've got a little help, as in my hubby's auntie just come over to help me feed baby when I am pumping my milk. Nowadays she more zi tong abit, at least help me hang laundry and wash cups if not previously I was doing everything myself, from washing and hanging of laundry, vacuuming, mopping, cleaning, packing. Can die!
3. Hubby's auntie dont know when everytime carry my #3 dear daughter, the diapers always will leak and overflow, then she say this brand no good, but when I using by myself, no problem at all...
4. 3rd week after maid left, I interviewed 1 maid and decided to have her transferred but the stupid transfer took so long and end up we decided to cancel it, but if i had waited, now I think I will have her already, dont know if I did a stupid choice.
5. In between, if you guys read my other threads, I had a part time maid that i wanted to employ her permanently but I decided too late, she was taken by sum1 else already. However, when she was working with me at dat time, while I was so called interviewing her, talking to her, my hubby stupid auntie kept interuppting and scaring her, keep saying dont play play with baby or whatever shit. Until i tulan, didn;t ask further, that caused me to decide abit later... I was thinking if I had been rude instead of showing respect with my hubby auntie by telling her to shut up when I am talking then this wouldn't have happen, if I had been firm then now I have that maid ... Everyday, i keep thinking of this until I goin depressed soon.
6. My kids, #1 dear daughter so far alright, just dat everytime when she shower come out, I gotta nag at her to dry her hair, have been saying for so long still can't listen. Everyday must ask her got hmwrk or not, if not she will just pretend and take a long time to do it. Evrytime call her, she like in dream land...
7. #2 dear daughter, terrible, very naughty... Everytime throw things everywhere, then dont wanna keep, in e end, always I keep, hubby will only keep when I nag. Then always spill drinks, food everywhere, then I have to keep cleaning ad cleaning...
8. Hubby, nowadays i dare not to talk much or nag much, worried he snap again... Bcoz I can't take it if he snaps again, I guess this timne round, I might snap even harder then him and go mad... When i ask him to help out, he got lots of reasons to give, like I dont like the way he help or what... He see me changing bedsheets, he dont even volunteer to help... See drink spill, he dont bother to clean...
9. Den sumtimes when hubby talk nicely to me, I duno why I jus can't ans him properly, I noe sumtimes he feels dat im feeling down so he tries to tell me happy things but I jus like very cold...
Me me me, everything its me... I think i wanna go berserk soon...
I dont know when can I get a new maid, hopefully soon as my agent looking out 1 for me...
Then I'm still breastfeeding, every 6 to 8 hours, I need to pump milk... I do find it tedious, wanted to give up, but for the sake of my #3 dear daughter, i keep holding on...
I feel like I dont have enough rest everyday... I'm so afraid that I will break down soon... But yet at the same time, I keep telling myself I am a mother of 3, I need to stay strong for them... Deep inside, I know I will crumble anytime...
As I'm typing this, I keep controlling my tears, dont 1 anyone to see it...
Last nite, I sms hubby tell him I cannot take it , wanna break down soon. yes, he did console me by replying the sms. He was in the bedroom while I was in the living room, he can't even come out to give me a hug or sumthing?
I know we can't talk face to face bcoz always end up quarreling that is why we send sms.
In a way, at least after penning everything down here, I did feel alittle relieve...
Sigh, whats wrong with me? Is it me? Or is it everyone else?
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